Caffeine and Protein Boost

Sometimes, I can't help but think that whatever happiness I've experienced one time, an equivalent amount (or even greater) sadness or unfortunate things happen. Equivalent Exchange, yea?

It's been almost a week since our last getaway to Singapore to attend Anime Festival Asia, to support our friends who represented Philippines in the recently held Regional Cosplay Competition, along with other rep's from Southeast Asia: Thailand, Malaysia and Indonesia. It's one of the most unforgettable experiences I've had, and am feeling extra proud to be a Filipino cosplayer. To cut the story short, Team Philippines (March Omega's Zhel and AC) won the competition, and Sir Robert Wong bagged the award for Singles Competition.

But now, it's back to reality. Back to work, and the never-ending cycle of waking up each morning, dreading each step into the ward.

For the past few days, I have this chant in my head that's intended to keep me a little boosted with work. It's to keep my head from being in the clouds; to keep my feet firmly planted on the ground. Sadly, the power of words doesn't seem to have any effect in my performance. Instead, I continue to think and think and think, and it doesn't help one bit. When I think, I stop entirely and then my mind wanders to I-don't-know-where.

I need an inspiration badly. I want to have the burning passion to perform tasks efficiently. I want to be best both in career and hobby so I can say I'm satisfied.

One Lesson

I've been looking for a light

At the end of this tunnel

I've been searching for a sign

To lead me home

Too many endless nights

Of sorrow

But on the other side of this

I know that my heart will live

I never saw a man who walked on the water

I never met a man who walked on the water

But I still believe

I don't understand many things 

But the miracle of love

and all my dreams

'Cause I still believe

And the more I live my life

The lesser I question

All the things I just can't see

Right in front of my eyes

So I take that leap of faith

And learn a few lessons

Time showed me that

What you give is what you get

I never saw a man who walked on the water

I never met a man who walked on the water

But I still believe

I don't know the answer to my prayer

But I keep kneeling down like somebody is there

'Cause I still believe

Well, I guess I could give up

'Cause there are days I wanna run away

From everything

But what good would that do for me

'Cause I, I, I still believe

I never saw a man who walked on the water

I never met a man who walked on the water

But I still believe

I never saw a man who walked on the water

I never met a man who walked on the water

But I still believe (yes I do)

I don't really know what tomorrow will bring

But I'm open to all possibilities

'Cause I still believe

I never saw a man who walked on the water

I never met a man who walked on the water

But I still believe 

I don't really know what tomorrow will bring

But I'm open to all possibilities

'Cause I still believe

But I, but I believe

I never saw a man, never saw a man, never saw a man,

Who walked on the water

I never saw a man, never saw a man, never saw a man,

But I, but I, but I believe (yeah)

But I, but I, but I believe

But I, but I, but I believe

This song by Danny Gokey was playing on loop as I was walking around a park near Boon Keng Station around two, just this morning. I find it comforting to listen to, as it seemed to be speaking to me.

For the past weeks, there are random things running in my head that I neglect my health and work. Looking for a "healthy" distraction wasn't easy, either, as I wasn't even "functioning" well. There were moments when I was throwing questions out loud, or simply staring into the void.... and then, this came.

Whenever I feel like drowning into my thoughts again, I'll just play this song and everything is blown away. I just have to believe. :)

Tournament of Champions---

It was a long shot for us. For me, at least, because I expected great results in such a short span of time, but I was inexperienced, and that lone fact should have made realize that I needed more time to accomplish what I set out to do.

Had it not been for work, I would have been able to finish it one time. "Priorities first", they say. Then again, why can some people finish too many tasks even though they have other things to attend to? Time management, I say.

Today's blunder taught me several lessons:

• Your passion and desire drives you to finish what you have started.
• Promises are not made to be broken. Unless you have a serious case of being at the brink of death, or simply your health is put into jeopardy.
• Second chances are given to those who deserve it. You screw up, you're forgiven, but you have to make sure to not mess that chance up once more, or it's all over.
• Efforts are never wasted; they are simply converted into another type of energy. One way or another, they will come in handy in accomplishing a grander cause.
• Friends and family are the rarest treasures in the whole wide world. Nothing can ever replace them, and the truest ones stick with no matter what.